Body Image Sucks

We live in a time where the people we consider hot and sexy are the likes of Anne Curtis, catwalks dominated by stick thin figures, billboards full of young actors/athletes in their underwear, and TV commercials of weight loss products. 

Seriously, woman? Where do you put all the carbs you eat.

I can smoke that sexily, too. Wait--

Before, we considered Marilyn Monroe sexy. If you put her side by side with our current stars, she’ll look fat and will be made fun of at the red carpet.

See those arms, legs, back fat, and tummy bulge? 

Everyday we are constantly reminded that we need to lose that extra couple of pounds. It gets the better of me.

See that fat? I need to get rid of it! 

I've never been obese or overweight. I gain a few unnecessary pounds when I’m stressed and yet I still  mull over such matters. I’m at the age where people expect me to be emotionally and mentally stable and I believe I am. But sometimes I only need one small trigger and I go over-analyzing again. I’m not in my early twenties anymore and metabolism has slowed down. I can’t eat a whole bag of Lays without repercussions. I can’t drink 5 bottles of light beer and not worry because it’s “light” anyway. I’m ageing and it shows.

I should shut up now because I don’t really know where this is going. I just feel like crap. Also, goddamn you, hormones.

“Outside show is a poor substitute for inner worth.” – Aesop

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Update: Home

Hello, everyone! I'm alive! Hurrah! Kidding aside, I'm thankful I found the time to write something here. It's been a while and I seriously miss writing here. So, let's do this!

I told you in my last post that I couldn't update this blog because my hands were full. Too full, actually. I will share what's going on with me one at a time. 

First, let me tell you that I transferred to a new abode. My  family stayed in this small bungalow for more than 26 years. It was tiny but decent and situated perfectly. We called it home. But kids grow up and accumulate stuff. We were at full capacity. The bungalow was not enough. I even transferred to an apartment after I came back from South Korea just so I can have my space. It was quite wonderful living alone. But nothing lasts forever and truthfully, the additional expenses hurt my pockets. So  when my folks finally had the courage and $$$ to build a new house, I told them I'm moving back in. 

This be me cooking. Yeah! I apologize for the mess that is called my "kitchen". This was last December and one of those very few moments where my kitchen is used. I only cook for two reasons -- 1) I promised 2) Le Boyfran. This was for reason #2 when my guest requested for pork steak and mushroom soup.

I know the photo doesn't do any justice but I adored my apartment. Who wouldn't? It's located at the back end of a subdivision filled with UP noisy students. It was quiet there except on days when my college neighbors throw parties. The apartment is a loft. On the first floor you'll find the living, dining, kitchen, bathroom, and laundry areas. On the second floor is the bedroom. Everything for only, wait for it, Php4,000! Shocked? Welcome to Los Banos!

Showing my spiral stairs which always tried to kill me especially at night when I want to pee. Or when I'm drunk.

So anyway, my folks and I transferred last February. We haven't fully fixed everything. We need to put cabinets at the dirty kitchen, finish painting the fence and dirty kitchen, and put some plants in the very small garden to add life. There are also some stuff that need to be put away properly. We haven't figured out everything. Let me share some photos. 

O Romeo, Romeo! Let down your hair, Romeo! LOLZ

Hello there, bookshelf with a lot of plush toys. 

My small nook in my room. I think this was on the first day. Hello, cheesy photos. 

My shoe rack. I threw/gave away pairs I was not using. Now this rack is full. I have to maintain a certain number of pairs so they will fit in my rack. This will help me prevent buying shoes all the freaking time. 

Valentine's tulips on top of my shoe rack from boyfran. See the colors of my walls? FUN!

There you have it. I'm now adjusting to the commute I have to take to and from work. It's quite a task. I'm also trying to get used again to parents texting me when I'm not home by 10pm. -_-

One update down, more to go! 

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I'm here.

I swear, I'm here. There's a lot going on lately and I haven't figured out how to do everything and still blog regularly. I want to fill you all in but not now. I'm only stealing a few work hours to post this. 

Anyway, I promise to update. Pinky promise!

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2012 Goals and Aspirations

It's 2012 already! I'm a little surprised but I'm very excited. I want to be positive and claim that this will be my year. I'm making this post to remind myself during the year what I'm working hard for. Sometimes life gets very tough and I need to be reminded every once in a while. Also, I would like to share them to you (obviously) and  wish you share yours. #tsismosa 

Get an iPhone 4S with a postpaid plan. I've never had a postpaid mobile plan in the Philippines. I know that's not shocking for Filipinos. Most of us are still using prepaid and utilizing the UNLITXT like crazy. I understand and I'm not criticizing. It's just that promos like this have no use for me. The person who I frequently txt lives outside the country. A message directly to his mobile costs P15 and Chikka message costs P2.50. If you are wondering why an iPhone, well, because he is using an iPhone and iMessaging will solve our problems. LDR sucks and is freaking expensive.

Fix our new house and my new room. This year will be very big for my family because finally we will be moving to a bigger and better house. We have been living in a small house for 20+ years and it doesn't cut it anymore. My room needs to be done and I need to be decisive.  Appliances, furniture, decor, etc. We need a lot. Whew! I want to help my folks ease the burden of our exponentially growing expenses, at least before I get married and have my own family. Ahem. (No. No wedding bells.)

Buy an iPod nano. I have been dreaming of an iPod since forever. If I'm getting the iPhone 4S, I don't think I need an iPod touch or something very fancy. I need something that will play music while I work and workout/run. I like that it has this Nike feature that can track my run. It can also be worn as a watch which I think is so cool and useful. I'm hoping to get one early this year since it not very expensive.

Buy a MacBook Pro. My beloved Vaio has died. I do not want to resurrect it. I'm not sure if I wrote here but I've been wanting to transfer to Apple for the longest time. I think it's quite obvious in this post. If I'm gonna replace my old laptop, then I'm getting a really good one. And I think iCloud will be a very useful tool for me.

Buy a Hyundai i10. I need a car. Why an i10? It's affordable and cute. Our new house is far and not accessible to public vehicles 24/7. Aside from these, the roads are quite dark and there are a lot of empty lots. To be honest, I'm afraid to get robbed, kidnapped, raped, and/or killed. I usually get off work late and I have other activities. I also go out with my friends and have lots of errands. My Mom needs a  ride to go to work, too. I need a ride to go to places without bothering if there is a jeepney/bus to my destination, until what time is the last bus, what should be the signboard or if the man beside me is manyakis or not. I do not have someone to protect me 24/7 and sometimes I think my trusty pepper spray will not be enough. Basta I need a car and I hope you get my point.

Refrain from clothes, shoe, and makeup shopping. I realized that all the "small" shopping I did last year actually amounted to quite a lot of money. I could have used the money for something else. 

Travel to more places in the Philippines. Truth be told, I have not seen a lot of Visayas and Mindanao. Before I travel to other countries, I want to explore ours first. 

Decide on my career path. I need to figure out what I'm gonna do with my career. My mind is struggling with all the options. I hope I get an answer this year.

Live a healthy lifestyle. I don't like wrinkles, sun spots, warts and dry skin. I don't want beer belly and muffin top. I want healthy glowing skin, shiny strong hair, and well-toned physique. LOL Parang commercial lang! The solution? Cream Silk! LOLJK Eat more fruit, veggies, and fish. Avoid fatty and junk food. Minimize beer intake and other bad habits. Exercise and stick to my workout. Get enough sleep and drink lots of water. Health is wealth.

Be more positive. I'm tired of being too negative. I need a positive outlook on life and love. 

In a nutshell, I need gazillions of money to accomplish this year's goals (wants) and a lot of discipline. This seems very materialistic but I haven't really bought anything expensive for myself. If I'm gonna spend my hard-earned money, might as well use it for stuff that are useful and serious. I also want to spoil myself before I get married. (Again, there are no wedding bells.) My Mom used to tell me, "I-enjoy mo ang pagiging dalaga at gamitin mo ang pera mo para sa sarili mo dahil pag nag-asawa ka na, maiiba na ang priorities mo at gagamitin mo na ang pera para sa ibang mga bagay."


That's it, pansit! Happy new year to everyone! 

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2011 In Review

Time flies. *sigh*

Allow me to review the year. I honestly have no idea if I was successful with my goals or what. Let's see.

Last year, I wrote this over at Tumblr. 

So, was I able to accomplish them? 

1. Braces. No. I did not have enough money to attend to my dental needs.
2. Exercise. Yes. I exercised regularly until the last quarter of the year. I was so busy. Excuses!
3. Lose my beer belly. Kinda. I exercised regularly and lessened my beer intake. It's sorta back now. Sad.
4. Slim down. I guess so. My pants are ill-fitting so I resorted to wearing my sister's old college jeans. Yay!
5. Lessen alcohol. Yes. I wanted to lose the belly badly. See #3.
6. More books. So-so. I read a couple of books but I think they are not enough.
7. Find new hobby. Meh. 
8. Bye, Boys. Yes! Hello again, boyfriend. <3 

I was also able to accomplish my 100-movie project. I'm satisfied. 

I'm a bit lazy to describe everything so let me summarize the year in photos. 

WARNING: Photo heavy! (Most of the photos are not mine.)

NOT NAKED!

NOT PREGNANT!

If you did not see your face here, please don't hate me. I had to go through thousands of photos and maybe our photo together is not stellar aka di kagandahan ang pagmumukha natin sa picture na yun. 

I'm very happy of how 2011 turned out. Thank you to everyone who made this year extra special and happy. It would have been a complete boredom of a year if not for you, guys. I hope you had a good year.

I'm so excited for 2012. Maybe because there will be a couple of changes in my life. I hope next year will be  better if not as awesome as this year. 

See you next year! 

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